ermm . i so scared of sleepys !
i scared of dream ! i hate the feeling =[

i am sad ! i cannot sleep . i feel like crying .
wHo can help? i hate OCTOBER !
HATE BIRTHDAY!
my birthday coming le . everyone will leave mi?
i so scared . =[

i know sth i tell my thing to other . ppl will tell mi don sad or what
But i don like ok.
so batter don say this to mi .
u will make mi more sad .

I feel dam sad rite now ! T_______________T
i tell my self i must be sTrong !
i still got alot of ppl !
BUT when the day come i really miiss her !
i know this is jusT so stupid . because i keep thinking of ahma !
because she is the one when my birthday she will be there for mi
when i open my eye first one who i can see de.

i forget when le . this year de January
!
when i playing com ! i suddenly
say ahma my birthday is coming .
sO my ahma say sO?
than i say this year i 18 year old le.
so she say
she will give mi $18.
because i am 18 year old le . i know this $ is not so much .
But i really feel so happy . when she say this to mi ,
BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
when February 29
my ahma have die le . now no more $18 for her .
i am dam sad . i really sad.
i hate it very much . T________________T

If i got a wish .
i wisH my ahma will not die .
I wish my mama will not die
i wish my papa will not die
this 3 wish . haiszz
BUT THis is just my dream . =[

i really wish .
i wan everyone to come back to mi .
i need them.

when sth time i saw ppl got family . i dam jealous
because they can call mama and papa !
but i cannot . =[

when they no money they can ask them for money.
i cannot .
i no money mean no money le .

they can shopshop with her&him mama
they saw anything nice . they can just ask her or him mama
buy for her or him.
but i cannot .

i only can be alone?
=[


I DON HAVE family! I WAN . I WAN
I JUST WAN THEM .
I NEEEEEEDDDD IT.